Mu’s Blog

As per usual nothing much is going on. Pretty much just working. Today there was a fair amount of trading of lunches which was no big deal but is actually very amusing in retrospect.

I bet that’s the wrong form of whose.

But it’s not… who is… so maybe I’ve got it right.

I can’t tell.  I’m cold.  I’m probably getting sick.  I’m feeling irritable.

Snappy.

I question.  Should I be excused?

I don’t really think so.  I don’t let myself off the hook.  Even if in the end I should.  That’s part of the sickness.

Slow day at work. Slow slow slow. Bored. Not the normal bored either. It’s that worse kind of bored, the kind where even if you have things you could do, you just don’t want to. You’re too bored to even go ahead and occupy yourself. Partially because any of the things you could be doing you shouldn’t because there are other things you actually should be doing but you just don’t feel like it.
Buh.

A follow up regarding a particular video game of the Silent Hill series that was like a nail in my head.

I was ready to give up.  Really.  But it was too many dollars and too much of an inexplicable fandom of the series.  Couldn’t tell you why I enjoy them.  Really really not much of a horror fan in any form, except aparently this one.

At any rate, I restarted the game from the beginning today and with a particular kind of determination and precision fought tooth and nail up to just past where I’d made it to last night, by the skin of my god damn teeth.  This go around, not too surprisingly I guess, I fared significantly better.

I was dismayed a bit this afternoon upon perusing the official strategy guide at the nearest available GameStop when I found I had not missed, well, pretty much anything in the game that far.  ‘Homecoming’ had proven itself linear enough, or I’ve played enough of the series, to have a feel for how things worked and was not skipping over crucial things.

Sadly, for whatever reason, and many are possible, it’s not a matter of real triumph or success.  I don’t feel a lot better.  I mean, I do feel much better than I did last night but that’s just because I’m not losing my shit raging at the game, or anything.  But not really better.  And there’s still a lot more of the game to go.

I had a thought as I was just sitting here attempting to calm down. I wondered, or rather had a thought and then was made to wonder: why do I still consider myself a writer? It’s almost an exercise in futility trying to get myself to regularly write in a blog, even though I’m under the impression that I want to. I don’t write fiction like I used to. That’s been ever decreasing since about 1998. It’s been dead quite some time.

Or, I can only faintly hope, sleeping.

FUCK SILENT HILL.  FUCK IT IN THE EYE.  SUCK A DICK KONAMI.  YOU CAN’T MAKE A GAME IF YOU’RE GONNA MAKE IT THAT FUCKING HARD.  IT’S TOO FUCKING HARD.  GIVE ME ONE MORE GOD DAMN ENERGY DRINK, ONE MORE CLIP, SOMETHING FOR FUCKS SAKE!  PUT A FUCKING SAVE POINT SOMEWHERE!  DON’T MAKE ME SUFFER THROUGH THE SAME SHIT TWELVE TIMES!  I DON’T CARE, GIVE ME AN EASY MODE OR SOMETHING!  FUCK!  I JUST WANNA PLAY THE GOD DAMN GAME THROUGH.

I WANT MY FUCKING MONEY BACK.

Well. There was a post here. Or there was supposed to be a post here. Unfortunately, my post expressing my excitement over my newly acquired iPhone was lost due to a small mishap with… My iPhone. Oh technology…
It is wonderful though. I had a trip today to Pennsylvania and was able to view my newsfeeds and check out new apps in the app store and the tedious car ride flew by. Yes, the expense was great but I’ve wanted one foe a long time and as I perused the finest offerings of our close competitor ad I was testing them I just sighed and realize that the truth is no one is going to catch up any time soon. Sorry android, I’ve followed you from the beginning and well… Not yet. That’s all.
So this is my second attempt. By all rights this will be the one you read. It’s a new era. And it starts with a phone.